![]() She goes for long walks on the beach couple of times a week and travels more than most most dentists I know. She is now happily practicing in San Diego and owns a nice home there. All in all, she ended up graduating 5 or 6 years after I did. I think there was one more remediation after that. She came back, struggled and remediated in D2 again for the second time. She remediated D2 because she missed an entire semester. WELL YOU WEEK DONT QUIT. FULLShe had a full mental break down in D2 from the high stress she endured through a very condensed curriculum and was hospitalized for it. I have a good female friend and old classmate from dental school who inspires me about life’s challenges, despair and the feeling of getting stuck. Dental school can make most dental students feel depressed, majority of them don’t talk about it. But I was fortunate enough to be around classmates and roommates who motivated me. I had my fair share of bad grades, I dreaded showing up to some classes and poorly run clinics. I also struggled in dental school as a non-traditional student who was going back to school at age 27. Meaning that even with remediation of the cadaver class I won't have a 2.0 required GPA because they only allow you to get a C in a remediation course. Turns out I got an 80 in a class, which I thought meant a B, but in this class anything between 70 and 82 is a C. Finally I got an email reply from someone and we broke down my grades. I fanatically calculated my GPA and nothing was making sense, I semi relaxed and though surely it was a mistake. I called and called multiple people in the deans office to get some explanation but they were all unavailable for the following 2 days (graduation preparations apparently). BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, although I only failed one class, I was slapped in the face by an email letting me know I was being given the "opportunity" to re-do my DS1 year. I was so relieved and although I lost my passion for dentistry, its still a super secure field and I thought 3 years will just fly by. Spring semester was not easy but it was night and day compared to the first semester. I was ready to just leave abruptly without a plan on so many occasion, but I was ultimately convinced by the deans office to stay and was told if I passed everything I could just remediate the failed class in the summer. I didnt particularly enjoy sim lab but was decent at it and I wasn't overall excited to be in clinic like my classmates. I later found out that secretly many of my classmates and many of you were/are going through the same struggles. I was depressed and anxious all the time with panic attacks and all. At this point I had already realized I HATE the sound metal instruments on teeth, like its the equivalent of nails to a chalk board for me. ![]() Psychologically it was so difficult for me, that despite me doing everything I possibly could I did not pass the class. fast forward to the first semester of dental school skinning and decapitating a human corpse and dissecting in areas not even relevant to general dentistry. I was so relieved I could avoid student loans for at least those first years. The income from that and finally deciding to sell the company allowed me to secure a condo and pay for the first 2 years of school. In the time I spent in between application cycles (total 4 years) I did a variety of jobs I hated and ultimately saw a level of success with a company I started. To my surprise I got not one but 2 acceptances!! I was beyond happy and my parents and little sister were so proud, it was a wonderful feeling. After 2 cycles of rejections I finally got accepted on my third try. So I had wanted to be a dentist for as long as I can remember, for a multitude of reasons. I feel completely lost and dont even know what kinds of jobs dental or medical school dropouts seek and successfully manage to get.I dont know if my reasons for staying are enough to stay and what guarantees I wont have these feelings to leave down the line when I'd be up to my neck in loans. The only thing thats keeping me from flat out walking away is 1- out of respect for the DECADE I have spent trying to make it in, And 2- Fear- fear of not being able to find something semi decent with this bio degree and then regretting my decision to leave. ![]() I am obviously also disappointed in myself as well but I know in my heart I did give this my all and its disheartening that it wasn't enough. I dont think I have it in me to repeat a whole year, for a single failed class, and take on the financial burden of student loans sooner than anticipated on a career path I cant fully see myself in, in a university that i'm fundamentally disappointed in for various related and unrelated reasons. ![]()
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